Where's the Pause Button?

I'm a teacher, which means I really love summers. This summer was my first as a mother, so naturally the season has flown past me. Two months feels like five minutes and I'm just digging my fingernails in and screaming for it to slow down. School can't start. How will I snuggle and nurse him down to sleep at naptime? How will I lay on the floor with him and play kissy monster or choo choo train for hours? How will we wake up when we're ready and spend the morning reading stories in bed? I'm lucky to have this time. More than that, I'm lucky to have him.  I know this, but it still hurts. It's been said so many times that the words lose meaning, but it really is life changing and it really does go way too fast.